Archive | Blessings and Beyond RSS feed for this section

Moving Out and Moving On

10 Apr

Leaving the house I lived in for 13 years was such a heartbreak for me. We moved there April 1, 2001 – I was still a freshman in high school. Though it tugs my heart to leave such a place, I have nothing else to do. We were just renting the apartment and the owner of that place was selling the whole lot (and quite probably going to build a townhouse) so all us tenants were forced to vacate the area.

For the past 4 months, every night I had became sleepless. Waves of worries washed me… Where will we move? Is the place we’re going to move in as safe, accessible and within budget? Can I still have the life I used to have in the new place we’re moving? What will happen to me, to our family? Glad I have my hubby to talk to and somehow he keeps everything pacified. We are exact opposites, really. Being the worrier that I am, stressing over every detail, hubby on the other hand is the laid back, what-will-happen-will-happen kind of person. He just tells me to continue doing what I do best – and that is to pray. It helped that I am part of CFC and LECCOM which somehow helped me in prayer.

For days, I asked every one in my contacts and those who live nearby if they know any house we can inquire. We walked around our area, searched for available houses, and BAM! A block away (exactly three houses) from my parents’ house was for lease. I prayed that God let us move in that place if that new house is really meant for us. Yes, there were troubles but nothing hubby and I can’t surpass.

We moved in to our new place last March 30, 2014 (Sunday). Hubby and I gave our house a soft blessing wherein I used Holy Water, a drop of oil of Miraculous Infant Jesus de Providencia. We prayed over our house to be a safe home filled with happiness, love and good memories.

Only yesterday we had our house blessed by Fr. Chito Bartolo, OFM Capuchin. He is the parish priest of National Shrine of Our Lady of Lourdes (NSOLL). He was very accomodating and witty!

Bittersweet and all, this new chapter in my life is definitely a milestone for our family. This gave me the realization that even if life is filled with changes and situations that will keep us moving forward, there is only one thing that will remain constantGod’s love for us. With God’s love always present with us, we just need to keep living a life filled with goodness and love.

 

Occupation: MOM 24/7

5 Feb

Looking at my planner, I find that there is no date that I have nothing to do. For each day of every week, there are chores and errands to do – cook, clean, wash, mend, the likes. When you become a mom, you surrender yourself to the fact that you work overtime without pay, everyday including holidays. You will be a mother, manager, nurse, teacher, chef, doctor, friend, playmate, planner, artist.

The tasks never seem to finish and somehow they keep piling up. For example, after homeschooling my daughter, I let her play so she can have a break. I was preparing dinner so I let her do her worksheets that I prepared, too. When everything is set for dinner, I find her surrounded with blocks, dolls, cooking sets and teacup sets. She did her worksheets quickly, but got bored so she played with her toys. Before we get to eat dinner, we tidy up the house a little. The little girl will excuse herself because she will read books or do her puzzles. Hubby and I will get to chitchat a little during dinner. By the time we’re done, the house is a mess again! I tidy up a little by picking the stuff and keeping them together, skipping the vacuum and broom, which will be added to tomorrow’s list of to-dos. I leave it that way so I can have at least 5 hours of sleep.

One day, I saw my little one putting on her bag after filling it with trinkets, carrying her laptop on her right hand and a foldable umbrella on her left, holding her toy cellphone and talking to someone.

I asked her, “What are you doing, sweetie?”

She answered giddily, “I have plenty of things to do. I am dressing up like you, Mom!”

I replied, “Do I dress up like that?”

She told me, “No… But you do everything for us. Thank you, Mom. Thank you for taking care of me and papa and the house.”

“You’re very much welcome, sweetheart.”

I hugged her tight, still unbelieving her thought that she appreciates what I’m doing for them.

No amount of salary can pay as high as my daughter’s love for my 24/7 job. 

Undergoing Open Appendectomy

20 Dec

Have you ever planned anything so important then a more urgent, more important thing will come your way and you have no choice but to choose the latter?

This was what happened to me.

I was preparing for something big last Monday, December 16… But something bigger came up the weekend before that. My family were out in the mall when pain struck me. My right lower abdomen hurt tremendously! I couldn’t stand straight and I couldn’t walk. I tried loosening my pants but it was no use. I thought, “Could this be appendicitis? Please don’t let it be. It’s just dysmenorrhea.”

Hubby bought medicines for me.

Don’t ever do what I did — self medicate. I took two Kremil-S tablets, then Ponstan SF, then Buscopan.

The Buscopan relieved me from the pain and we were able to eat dinner and even watch “Frozen.”

Frozen

Frozen

Come Sunday morning, I had fever and still had that tummy ache. Hubby brought me to STH ER and I underwent some tests (cbc with platelet count and urinalysis). The doctor advised me to transfer to USTH for ultrasound. But when we got to USTH ER, the interns and doctors who checked me up and palpated my abdomen all had one diagnosis — Acute Appendicitis.

Right there and then, they admitted me and scheduled an Open Appendectomy STAT.

I was confined for 5 days and was discharged just yesterday. I had spinal anesthesia around 11pm, Sunday, was on general liquids (Monday), on soft diet (Tuesday) and full diet (Wed and Thurs).  As of this writing, I am still having a hard time walking, moving too much, sneezing, coughing and laughing.

The hardest for me is not to take care of my daughter the way I used to. I miss carrying her, giving her baths, and dancing with her. I pray that I will get better soon so I can go back to the things I normally do.

I leave to you the words of my doctor, “Whatever important thing you have to do, this is more important than that.” It was a bit hard for me to accept that but I know deep inside he was right. What if I came in late and my appendix had ruptured? It would have been more complicated to manage.

Health is wealth, really.

I also want to thank all the efforts of my better half to make me feel I am loved, taken care of and supported. He is and always will be my Superman.

Looking forward to better days ahead for me and my family. And if it’s not too much to ask, please say a little prayer for my quick recovery.

Thank you so much…and God bless you.

100th Post: How Motherhood Changed Me + Giveaway Winner

26 Jul

Little did I know what would await me as a mother that moment my little girl was conceived. I just knew one thing and that is trust — Trust in the Lord that I could do it because He entrusted this privilege and honor to bear the child.

Fast forward to February 2011, we were blessed with a healthy baby girl. And once this little stranger came into our lives, I knew that my life would never be the same — ever. I have never felt a love so strong and so complex at the same time. The more I get to be with her, the more I love her. Yes I am her mother and I ought to teach her and guide her, but actually, it is the other way around. I learn from her, and continuously learning with her. Motherhood improved me holistically. I became stronger — physically, emotionally, spiritually. I learned to be better for myself and for my family. The role of motherhood forced me into being a jill-of-all-trades, a woman who does so many yet summing up to one — a nurturer who fulfills my family’s needs.

Click Continue Reading and see how I was changed.

Continue reading

Blessings and Beyond | The Unexpected Answer to my Prayers

13 Jun

Choosing to be a full-time mom to my now 28-month old toddler has been one of the drastic decisions I have made in my entire life. I have big dreams of finishing my Masters then applying to work overseas to fulfill my dream of being a Nurse Anesthetist. I’ve heard of this title while I was a scrub nurse on a major cleft lip and palate operation. I asked about it and I knew that a position like that is not available in the country since we have Anesthesiologist here.

But in the middle, well almost at the end of my masters, a big news came up! I was up for a staff nurse position in Brunei. I was caught in the middle of working abroad and finishing my degree. I was praying very hard because I wanted both. I prayed for the guidance of the Holy Spirit… I prayed that if it’s really for me, then I’d be ready. My parents were pushing me to go already because as they say, opportunity comes only once… I prayed more and more because a part of me didn’t want to leave. Then God answered my prayers in a very surprising way… I was pregnant.

Breaking the news to my family, especially my parents, was hard for me too. [But that’s another story that I won’t be telling…] Being pregnant led me to a different path – a path where my dreams were pushed away for something greater. All of my goals were put to a halt because I have to serve my purpose… to be a wife and a mother.

It is true that opportunities knock only once. These opportunities may come again, but after a long while. We may cry over spilled milk and may have so many “what ifs” at the back of our minds. It is perfectly normal for us to do so. But if we look close enough, they may not be what they seem. My opportunity to work abroad may just be a test of my faith in Him. Maybe something terrible might happen to me if I pursued going and God prevented me from it… Things happen for a reason. These reasons may be incomprehensible for us, but we just have to learn to TRUST that Someone is more powerful than us. Let me put in here one of my favorite lines in one of my favorite movies (A Walk to Remember), “Maybe God has better plans for me than I have for myself.”

 Looking back to these things make me realize that I am truly blessed. With this experience, I realized that God is in control. Yes we choose our destiny but God has His ways of bringing us back to His will. We just have to trust Him and continue praying… We just have to let go…and let God.